We are back safe and sound from the BVX and Spud did awesome - a post about it should be out sometime soon... but until then? No spoilers unless you're on my Facebook and/or Instagram, haha!
Following the Online Dressage show, I waffled between feeling pleased with the test and being too hard on myself. Which, surprise surprise, right?
Lately, I've avoided the riding arena - opting instead to hack out on the trails and roadways. I don't really feel motivated in the arena simply because I feel like we have mountains of things to work on and haven't made much headway in the most basic of principles.
Sometimes I sit back and wonder if I'm the best rider for my mare, or if she would be making better strides in progress with someone else?
And yet still, I press on and ride the horse - arena be damned.
|It's hard when you have a shit ride out on the trails|
and question yourself even more...
I feel like we should be further along than we are; that we're struggling to master the basic concepts a riding horse should have and despite having a wonderful arena ride post-online show (with zero cross-firing or missed leads), I still can't help but think it's my fault. This whole bringing up greenie world is so new for me, and I constantly let these thoughts plague me:
I can't even isolate her hind-quarters.
We canter crooked.
We can't even trot straight down center-line.
She is STILL behind my leg.
We haven't practiced shoulder in, she probably forgets how to do it.
She isn't relaxed in those videos - she looks tense and annoyed.
We sometimes pick up the wrong lead still...
|She redeemed herself tho - after over a week off and no prep|
we went out for a 7k trail ride and she was super.
Which, I guess isn't a bad thing, considering Annie can be a bit nervous on new and "harder" trails.
What about that canter?
What about the tense and fussy bridle connection?
And what about her constant tail wringing? Is she broken? Am I breaking her? Will she ever stop?
What about the lack of forward we still have?
What about bending through all our corners instead of 2.5 of them?
|I watch and rewatch the videos and my insides just cringe with the amount of|
tail wringing she does... And no matter how many times I hear clinicians
tell me it's her protesting my legs, I can't help but wonder if I'm
doing something wrong?
Which, once I had a good idea about the lack of forwardness and how to appropriately fix it, Annie and I spent two weekends filled with clinics and weekdays filled with schooling sessions really drilling the new change into her. And now?
I'm kinda tired.
Drilling exercises is sometimes needed, I guess, but it's also fun to just enjoy the horse for enjoying the horse. Twenty meter circles and centerlines be damned.
|So, this works for us.|
It's just hard.
Bringing up a young horse is hard.
And I am so damn thankful for being able to share every minute with you guys - the positive words, relate-able blogs, and many words of encouragement keep me sane in this journey.
For what its worth, the mare has been (mostly) good (save for one trail ride wherein she could just NOT).