Monday, March 5, 2018

Ty, The Very Best Dog


This past week has been incredibly tough, and I don't really have the words to convey the profound sense of loss or devastation that is wreaking havoc on my heart. It is one thing to see your partner (because Ty was so much more than just a "pet") struggling, but it is another to realize that struggle and do the most selfless thing a person can do - let them go.

Since his diagnosis of DM (degenerative myelopathy) back in July, we handled the bumps and blips in the road with ease as certain things just became part of 'normal life'. The race-way of sectional carpets and booties became a ritual that we took part in for Ty's comfort and in his best interest. He flourished with the minimal changes and then, just as quickly as our success had surmounted, it seemingly plummeted.

Ty was a very proud dog, and even as the disease made him incapable of simple tasks at times, he still would have powered on to follow me to the end of the Earth. That's just the kind of dog he was. He was hopelessly and frantically devoted to his person (me), and I him.

And when we cuddled on the floor a few weeks ago, I saw it in his face. He was quick to redraw his poker face, because if nothing else, Ty was not a complainer.

But, I saw it.

He was getting tired, and in the fleeting moment he had let his guard down, I saw.


We made his last week extra special. Bacon for breakfast, an entire steak to himself... paw-print canvases, a sleep-over in the living room, massages by the fireplace, and one last "walk". A walk without the wheelchair he simply "dealt" with (because: proud dog can do it himself, thank you very much), a walk without me hovering over him and worrying if he was going to fall.

One very last walk in the sunshine.

And even when he began to get tired, he powered on and walked himself through the front door. Because that's just the kind of dog he was.

My heart is irrevocably broken, and I will miss him immensely for the very rest of my days. I can only hope that everyone has the chance to have felt the love and devotion of a great dog, because he was the very best.

Thirteen years was not long enough.

2004-2018

22 comments:

  1. Sending you every last ounce of love, he was so blessed to have you (and vice versa). <3 <3 <3 <3

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  2. I'm so, so very sorry for your loss 😭 I cried reading this post, because I know this kind of searing pain that never really goes away. Godspeed Ty.

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  3. i am so so so so sorry ( i cant even express how sorry i am but you did the correct right thing!!) Hugs to you and your family. He is free of pain now!! Remember the lovely times with him and remember how much he loved you all! HUGS...and you are the kind of pet owner I am proud to stand next too in blogland!!

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  4. aw i'm sorry :( there's nothing in the world quite like a good, good doy <3

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  5. I am so very very sorry. I cannot express how deeply your words touched me. This post is all about love.
    thank you. God speed Ty.

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  6. I hate this moment for you, and love that your care and thoughtfulness for him. I hope you're able to find comfort in his memories and enduring love for you.

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  7. Sending lots of love your way!!

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  8. So very sorry. You did all the best things for him, even at the end.
    Rest easy Ty <3

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  9. I am so sorry, DM is tough. My Uncle let his boxer go that had DM about a year and a half ago. Like you my uncle made his last week very special. *big hugs*

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  10. I'm so sad for you, Ty does sound very much like the very best of dogs.

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  11. I am so, so sorry. They are the best things about us and losing a dog is the worst.

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  12. A wonderful tribute to a wonderful dog. DM is hard. I’ve seen a lot of dogs with it and it is just not fair a fair disease. So very sorry for your loss.

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  13. I’m so sorry to hear about Ty. He was a very special dog who powered through his pain because of his love for you. You did the right thing for him even though it was heartbreaking for you. I’ve done this so many times and it never gets easier. The memories will help you heal over time. RIP Ty you were well loved.

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  14. It sounds like you gave him a beautiful life. So sorry for your tremendous loss. :(

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  15. No amount of time is ever enough with dogs like him. Love and hugs.

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  16. I wish animals never had to get old. <3

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  17. So many hugs - the heartbreak never goes away :(

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  18. Barely knew Ty, but this had me tearing up too. It's obvious how very special he was. Hope you're able to be kind and patient with yourself as you grieve :(

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  19. I am so sorry for your loss ❤️❤️❤️

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  20. I am ugly crying right now. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. It is so hard to do that final "right thing". My heart aches for you. Run free. Good dog.

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