|Such best friends <3|
Since Suzie's passing it's been a pretty large adjustment. The barn has been a very quiet and sad place for me. Don't get me wrong, I still go out every day to give grain to Annie (along with her new supplements and meds, which is a post I need to write about!) and pick poo. It just doesn't feel the same and I'm sure it won't for a long time.
It was weird, but I was also a bit relieved they didn't seem bothered by Suzie's absence. It made things much, much easier and I was able to sleep soundly at night not worrying about them pacing and neighing all night long.
Annie does stand in the one corner of the paddock and searches the front area where I used to let them graze, but she is calm and quiet about it. She also takes a bite of grain and will walk to the edge of the stall mats to peer around the corner of the barn. I don't know if she is looking for Suzie, but it sure seems like it. I'm just glad she isn't frantic about it.
My barn time has been largely limited by the weather, too. It has been completely miserable and we've had several storm warnings - including a freak snow-storm a few days ago. So, aside from lunging Annie a few times and riding her around the street, I haven't done much. Truth be told, I don't have the heart to push myself past puttering around at the moment.
The season for the riders in this area is done, and I am kind of glad that it's time for some down time. I can heal on my own and ride when I am ready without the pressures of clinics, shows, etc.
|This guy has been a huge help <3|
I'm glad the weather is helping to give you a much needed respite to heal -- Annie and Spud will be there ready for you to kick it back up in the spring. Thinking of you <3ReplyDelete
As much as the weather sucks, it keeps me from pushing myself too much. <3Delete
Look after yourself and take all the time you need. The great thing about horses is they're quite content to hang out until you're ready for more. I've been thinking about you, we've been getting a little of that nasty weather here but I think you've been getting the worst part of it.ReplyDelete
I will <3Delete
And I think Annie deserves a bit of a break anyways.
And YES. We have had almost 100mm of rain. Lost power the other day when it snowed and have had a lot of flooding on the roads.. Ick.
Glad to hear Annie and Spud are behaving through the adjustment. hugs.ReplyDelete
It really makes it easier that some part of them must "know" what happened to Suzie and why. I feared they'd be frantic without her and part of me just didn't want to deal with that.Delete
I really feel like horses sometimes just know. <3ReplyDelete
Annie will eat her grain from the feeder and wander over to the end of the lean-to and peer out in the back paddock. She'll chew, chew, chew and then wander back and get more grain... and then repeat.Delete
It's weird. My sister thinks Suzie's "aura" is hanging around. I don't know if I believe in that, but if she is hanging around the back field and is keeping an eye on things, I do appreciate it.
<3 <3 <3ReplyDelete
I am glad that the horses are doing okay and that you are dealing with things. ((hugs))ReplyDelete
We are all kind of healing in our own way. Spud has been a huge help - he is so loveable and cuddly that it's hard not to hug him. I've cried quite a few tears into his mane the last week.Delete
SNOW? Not SNOW already?? LOL :) I am glad the horses are doing okay and hope you can take as much time as you can to grieve and get yourself emotionally ready again Before you know it will be Spring again!! :) Hugs to you and please write up the supplement stuff for Annie. I love reading all that stuff. So informational what different horses use/need!!ReplyDelete
Thankfully, the severe rainstorm we are having washed all of it away, haha. So it didn't last long!Delete
And oh my god, yes. Spring will be here so very soon!
And I will :)
I'm glad the other ponies are handling the changes well so far. Give yourself all the time you need -- it's a very hard thing <3ReplyDelete
I am glad too - makes things less stressful when they take to adjustments easier than expected.Delete
Thank you Tracy
Definitely take your sweet time to process it all, I'm glad I did, and I'm always here to talk if you need a sympathetic/empathetic earReplyDelete
I appreciate it, L <3 It has been comforting to have so many people's support.Delete
I'm behind, but since I know all this now I'll be praying for you. Allow yourself to grieve and be comforted by that Spud nose. We're all here for you.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Allie <3Delete
I'm also behind in my blog reading and just want to send my sympathy and some hugs your way. It's so hard to make that decision for our hooved best friends but it sounds like it was the kindest and best decision for her. I'm glad your other two are adjusting well and giving you comfort.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Jessica <3Delete
hang in there! she was a wonderful mare with a big personality and huge presence <3ReplyDelete
Thanks, Emma <3 I'm trying!Delete
Time will make the hurt easier to process - and kisses from Spud will definitely help it looks like! I hope the weather helps lend some time to curl up and think back on all of the good times.ReplyDelete