Friday, September 9, 2016

Making The Decision

Suzie has been officially retired since the middle of April and in some ways, it has been both a blessing and a curse.

Since my initial ownership of Suzie, I had run into a vast array of lameness issues that were, undoubtedly, left-over complications of a hard and heavy competitive career in both the barrel and drill team arenas.

Being my first horse, an elderly and broken down 20 year old shouldn't have been my first choice.

But, I don't hold any ill qualms towards Suzanne for her short-comings. She has played an important role into my foray as a horse-owner and it will always be her that I will refer to when telling the story of "my first horse".

She certainly holds an exclusive, and permanent residence in my heart.

There will never be another red mare quite like her, and I wouldn't want there to be.

As horse owners know - and will surely resonate with - owning horses is particularly tough on the finances, especially those who are suicidally-apt, eldery, or higher-end show stock. Our cheque-books are permanently partially open because in addition to board, tack, and feed, our Four-Legged partners are apt to fall ill in the most outrageous ways and during the most inappropriate of times.

For those who board, owning a broken horse begins to add up. The amenities you once had a usefulness for are no longer a necessity and the previous amount of time you spent at the barn may significantly shorten. And yet, the pocket-book and expenses fail to waiver.

There are umpteen resolutions one could come up with for a permanent pasture-puff - one that works within the best interest of the horse and the aforementioned cheque-book. Retiring a young and otherwise healthy mare to the life of producing foals, providing companionship, becoming an unshown and unsound children's mount or therapeutic mount.

The above mentioned solutions (and many more) can provide a "way out" of a situation where there is a poor balance of work vs reward.

The last few months I've had to sit down and analyze exactly what retiring means in not only Suzie's life, but mine as well.

I am lucky enough that I self-board my two horses at a private property and the board itself is adequately priced. Had I been boarding at a larger, more prestigious facility, I may have had to make the decision to move.

In addition to the private boarding, I am exceptionally fortunate that Suzie held out as long as she did. Suzie competed until she was a late 22 year old, which is pretty fantastic! I know several friends who have had to retire their 7, 8, 9 year olds for a variety of complications and some are still "stuck" in that desperate situation and fine-line between "good owner" and "bad owner".

There are no illusions to the problem it poses.

The good horse owners know owning a perma-lame horse is similar to simultaneously lighting $100 bills on fire for several hours.

But who else will care for this living, breathing creature?

Who will ensure it receives proper care, nutrition, and love?

I don't know what the right answer is, and I'm sure there isn't one. I just know what the right one is for me and my Suzie, and I know what is attainable for the both of us.

It certainly is something every horse owner should think about at least once. It may make you reconsider your options and just what you are willing to not only dish out, but give up.

For my mare?

When I had trailered her home I did two things:

I promised her love beyond any kind of love she had ever experienced in her life.

And the simple devotion to care for her until her last, final breath.

And I meant it.


  1. She is lucky to have you! Beautiful post.

    1. Thank you - I have been having all the feels lately...

  2. The horse world is a better place for having people like you to take care of and love our older horses. They deserve the best life we can give them after many years of working with us. Unfortunately,some people just throw out a horse who is no longer useful to them for showing. Suzie is lucky to have found you and you her. I'm sure she appreciates all you do for her and how much you love her.

    1. I just think to myself, what does she owe anyone anymore?

      She has done more than her fair share of time, that is for certain!

  3. Beautifully written. You are lucky to have each other.

  4. Beautifully written. You are lucky to have each other.

  5. Love this. She is very, very lucky to have an owner who is so devoted to her care and happiness.

  6. This is beautiful. Thank you for writing it. As an owner of a horse with health and soundness issues I totally get it.

  7. I <3 Suzie. You guys make such a good pair, and her retirement will never change that